Every once in a while, I'll feel invincible. A moment of clarity, where I see the things that matter clearly differentiated from those that don't. Or maybe a moment of hubris where I believe myself to be untouchable. Possibly a moment of insanity where I risk looking like an idiot in front of one of the few people I really care about.
These moments are when I throw caution to the wind and just say what I'm thinking or feeling with very little filter - basically, I'm honest.
It's hard for me to tell someone I miss them when I'm not entirely sure they miss me. Or if they even care.
It isn't even that deep. It was just a random email to a friend. Well. Not random. But an infrequent letter. Not really important. More about daily sundries. And a cavalier comment that I miss him.
But he hasn't responded. And now, I'm thinking too much. I was just being honest. There's nothing between us. We've only ever been friends. And I'm glad. It's normal to miss your friends when you're far away.
It's just the empty silence that makes me uneasy.
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