the birthday week - over the hump

Birthdays remind me of things I'd like to get accomplished.  I enjoy the celebration of myself, but I also think about what goals I wanted to reach that I haven't reached yet.  So sometimes there are moments of melancholy surrounding the bday - but mostly I'm happy.

1 - I love to reward myself during my bday week.  Eat the desserts I love, drink juice, sleep late, shop.  All my vices in a skirmish of happy indulgence.

2 - I got plenty of bday wishes from friends and family today, and the one that gave me a warm feeling was an email with the subject line: 'Look Inside' and the body reading: 'Happy Birthday!!!! J'.  From the same old friend some people think I should marry. 

3 - I'd like to plan more bday festivities for the week and month, even, but I kinda feel like that'd be gratuitous.  Especially considering that some of my friends aren't doing well financially right now.  

4 - I think I could be happy unemployed.  Maybe for a while.  If I had some other source of income.  I might be just the kind of lazy bum to enjoy never working again.  

5 - Random confession:  Swallowing pills is really hard for me.  So hard I use liquids for cold medicines and chewables for vitamins.  I used to try to bury pills in applesauce or yogurt, but I can't even do that anymore.