family ties

Today I came home to help my dad get ready for a trip.  I'm realizing that he actually is getting older, and there's nothing he nor I can do about that.  He forgot a lot of things today.  And that's not usual, but since he was thinking about his trip - I guess it's not cause for real concern.

Today's confessions:

1 - I love my dad parents, but they infuriate me sometimes.  I think to myself - how could they possibly have taught me so much when they seem so inept, now?  And yet I know they have done a lot for me.  I hate feeling ungrateful.

2 - No one at work knows I'm looking for a new job.  But I'm not looking as hard as I should be because I kinda feel bad about leaving them when we just lost someone.  Even though I don't really feel beholden to them.

3 - Sometimes I want my friends to only be my friends.  Or be better friends with me than my other friends.  I just don't like getting left out/missing the fun.

4 - I love doing my taxes.  It makes me feel in control and well-prepared.

5 - I snore.  Enough to make me want to get a recording device and document it to ensure that I won't disturb other people if we spend the night somewhere.  I'm very self-conscious about it.